"Let all mortal flesh be silent, with fear and trembling stand."
Here I have tried to walk away from something that has been my path for years, but I am finding that I do not have the words as I try to find a way to put into words who or what I understand the Spirit to be, and how I am called to live that. Right now it is silence. I simply do not have the words. I feel pregnant and ready to birth something, but...not yet. I do know this. This monastic calling still is there. A monk in the world.