A journey through the hills and valleys of life...
What if the Divine were within everything and all we had to do was see it? What if in seeing it we could see clearly? What if seeing clearly we were guided by our deepest selves? What if gnosis is simply seeing clearly? It is.
I have a boyfriend. I am also dating another man. Both know of each other and get along, but are not dating each other. I am a polyamorous man, but I have not always been so. For sixteen years I was in a monogamous relationship. Eight of those years we did not engage in relations. I was working as a massage therapist, and I developed a friendship with one of my clients. Over time, we became good friends and with it both of us became aware there were more feelings involved. When he professed his love for me, I was shocked because I had come to love him too. But I also loved the person I was with. Because I believed the culture's teachings that one person for all your life will make you "happy ever after" I ended the friendship with this man, breaking his heart in the process.
Fast forward to years later, after my partner had passed away. I began dating a guy and his husband. Honestly I entered it having feelings for one of the men...but over time the three o…
As I sat in meditation upon the lessons of Aphrodite, one word kept coming to me...pleasure. Pleasure is such a loaded word. In our culture there is both an intense desire for it and a very real fear and Puritanical rejection of it. However, I believe that in order to be beautiful (which is Aphrodite personified), then it cannot be a Dionysian recklessness of pleasure that leads to addiction, sorrow, and madness, but rather is a more middle way, rising fully formed from the waves of chaos. (As an aside the child of Aphrodite and Dionysis was Priapus who was known for his oversized and permanent erection, never able to go down or return to normal.)
Pleasure is taking joy in life. We honor that which feels good. The taste of a chocolate covered strawberry. Self pleasuring the body after a stressful day. The touch of a friend as a way to show they are happy to see you. There are 10,000 ways of pleasure that bring no suffering to oneself nor others. These ways are the paths of Aph…
The body is utterly sacred. It is the temple of the Gods of Love, Beauty, Desire, and Pleasure. It is through the body that we come to experience life in its fullness. We see. We hear and taste. We smell and feel. These gateways are portals of delicious experience. Because of this, I seek to use my body as a place of offering to She who presides there. When I see somebody I find attractive, I am thankful for their beauty. When I am drawn by scents, I am thankful. I embrace these experiences. When I was a teenager I was taught by my church that lust is as wrong as adultery, but now I know better. Lust and desire is normal. I can channel that lust in positive life-fullfilling ways. I can relish the feel of my lover's kisses on my body as well as use my desire to push me further in the things I want. Lust and desire can be an end in and of themselves. If I see a man I desire, but that man is in a monogamous relationship with another, I will not do anything to harm th…